Tale of a Crazy Young Maiden

I got really emotional this weekend and convinced myself that the boyfriend will break up with me, because we just passed the sixth month mark and two previous boyfriends broke up with me after six months. Then I decided that if he is not going to do it now, he most certainly will during camp this summer, because two previous relationships also ended during camp two summers in a row. Furthermore, I drew the conclusion that my parents are already used to me being gone and do not need me anymore. Then I spent the whole day sleeping and crying because I was alone and no one needed or wanted me.

Then the boyfriend called.

"What's wrong, honey?"

I then proceeded to explain to him how my family does not love me anymore, how he does not need me anymore, and how he is most certainly going to break up with me soon.

Maybe the obsessive crying and whining scared him, because he showed up at my dorm at 8:00 before class this morning, rose in one hand and breakfast in the other. One hug and then I certainly felt a little low. As of the present moment, my tendency to slip into a complete irrational state of mind every now and then has not deterred the relationship. Perhaps he realizes that these situations are momentary, so he just sits tight until I am the sweet, thoughtful, loving, and level-headed girl that he knows. But I out-did myself this time. Hopefully he will make a full recovery.

Thank God he's sane.

Some good things:
1) I was praised by my aerobics boss for my work in class today. Perhaps this attention will be the incentive I need to get certified so I can have my own class next year.
2) I've been eating healthier and cutting down considerably on my caffeine intake. What a difference!
3) I've been thinking about where I'm going to live next year. I've realized that talking about change and thinking about new things makes me extremely happy.
4) I have an A in psychology so far. But unfortunately it is my only A. Since when have I turned into such a bad student? Oh wait, this is the good list...

Some not-so-good things:
1) My grades are stinky because I have no goals or ambition.
2) I have no goals or ambition.

In conclusion, now I must study to make the grades, which will enable me to discover my ambition, that will be the leading force allowing the discovery of my future path, after which I will excell at my future decision, so that I may reside in peaceful and perfect harmony with the boyfriend, when I will be able to visit the loving parents, and someday hope to teach aerobics on the side.